The journaling for this one is self explanatory: I was driving to the Cities tonight with Griffin in the car, during rush hour, to visit Mel & Mike and new baby Megan. As I drove, I worried about crashes and accidents and things that would hurt G. And I realied: this is NUTS! I have to quit worrying about everything. If I was meant to die in a horrible car wreck, it will happen. Worrying about the things that could go wrong is draining and non-productive. I remembered when I was a kid that people had "worry dolls." You whisper your fears to the doll before bed and the doll takes the worries away aws you sleep. I decided that instead of having a worry doll, I would make a worry page. All my fears - silly and serious - can go in this envelope. Then I don't have to think about them any more. I can free my mind and concentrate on living life. I'm not sure if it will really work. But I do see some value in the act of writing the words down on paper. Sometimes my fears are pretty irrational. Seeing them in black and white is a way of gaining perspective.
I used my Wacom tablet to write around the edge of the white: "This is my worry page. All my worries and fears are hidden in the envelope so they can't clutter up my thoughts or occupy my mind."
The Bazzil policy envelope is PERFECT for this kind of thing ... I've been hoarding mine for ages and I'm glad I finally got to use it! :-)
Hmmm ... I guess I could give some examples of my fears. Things like my kids getting seriously hurt ... cancer ... Noah falling on the playground stuff and breaking his neck ... that sort of thing. Thanks for looking!
