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Posted: 2/8/2013 11:33:45 AM
I had yet another person that said when" so and so met me" they thought I was a tweaker.

I have a long face, some acne issues and my skin isn't as glowy as it once was. I am working to quit smoking but its difficult but I am doing my best.

I really don't get what it is about ME, that people get this impression. It makes me so angry, because why did I never use the drug if I was just going to accused of using it anyway? Well, obviously I would never use it for very obvious reasons. I think it is the most disgusting drug and and I commend anyone who beat meth but apparently NOT using the drug did me no good as people still think I have.

My DH doesn't seem to understand how this affects my self confidence, I barely leave my house, I no longer look people in the eye. That with my acne which is really not as bad as it could be but its bad enough where I have acne scarring which maybe people confuse for meth scarring, I feel like I am trapped.

I think having a long face, doesn't help. My cheeks and face look sullen. I have tried everything there is to try.

I can't gain weight whatsoever and wish I could gain weight in my face but its just not possible.

I am very skinny like I have said before 5'4 between 118-120, on me, it looks really skinny. People never can tell I had kids, I get accused not only of being a "tweaker" but of being anorexic, bullemic etc. I am so tired of it. I used to be self confident. I use to look people in the eye, I would walk into a room and "own" it.

My DH is tired of me being sad about it, tired of hearing about it and I am crying as I write this so sorry if thoughts are jumbled and I am not making sense. I just don't know what to do anymore.

I don't feel sexy anymore to my DH.

I just want to SCREAM, and cry and never go outside again.

I KNOW I shouldn't let what others say bother me, I really shouldn't. I know I should be stronger than this, and if only one person had said it I would brush it off, but its now in the course of 5 years honestly not 2 like I said before. It's been about 8-10 people telling me this.

I give up, I really do.

I needed to vent here, write this out, get it off my chest and look for some support.



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Posted: 2/8/2013 11:44:11 AM
I'm so sorry. I don't have words of wisdom, but I did want to offer hugs and encouragement.

I'm a big believer that when people says hurtful things like that to others it is because of their own insecurities or a deep seated character flaw. It doesn't reflect badly on you but it says everything about them.

And yes, hearing it multiple times can cause seeds of doubt to grow within yourself. Please don't let them take root.

I hope others here are able to help encourage you and lift you up. (((Big Hugs)))


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Posted: 2/8/2013 12:00:51 PM
Since some of these are physical, have you ever talked to a doctor about it?



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Posted: 2/8/2013 12:05:08 PM
I'm mad for you. Why don't those people have a filter? Didn't their parents teach them that it's rude to talk like that? Damn!

It's not more polite to tell you that than tell someone who is overweight to step away from the table. I feel for you since society is all about people trying to lose weight and nobody does anything for those that have trouble gaining.

I've heard women moan and scoff at those that say they need to gain weight. I'm not one of them, but I understand your frustration anyway.

I hope you can find a way to get yourself your mojo back.



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Posted: 2/8/2013 12:05:22 PM
What the heck is a tweaker?



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Posted: 2/8/2013 12:07:16 PM
I am sorry, that has to be so frustrating to hear from others. It is absolutely understandable to feel like you do about it, and I find often men just don't understand it. It is very hard to explain something so personal to someone else.

I am not sure what to offer for suggestions. One of my friends is a makeup artist who teaches our clients as she works with them how to disguise skin flaws. Would it be something you would consider doing to help you feel better about your skin & shape of your face? I am not sure where you are located but an professional (not makeup counter or direct sales) might be able to teach you.

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Posted: 2/8/2013 12:12:05 PM
I also did not know what a tweaker is but I gather it is someone who uses meth?
I'm sorry you are feeling so badly, I think you should make an appt. with a doctor and discuss some of these things. I know it is hard but I think you should do your best to get out of the house and go for walks. Get some sunshine, and yes, try your hardest to quit smoking. Sorry again

Eta: I also think you should make an appt. with a skin care consultant/make up artist and invest in some good make up.



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Posted: 2/8/2013 12:12:17 PM
I'm sorry you are going through this, I have the opposite problem. Overweight. It does take a toll on your confidence.

A treatment you might try for your acne is drink Lots of Green tea minted is really good. Also try a mix of Tea Tree Oil and Witch Hazel 11 to 1 ratio, 1 being the tea Tree Oil. Followed by a really good oil free face lotion. My dd battled acne and this has worked really well. She was even on a treatment from the dermatologist. This works better. Of course you need to cut back on oils. Only healthy oils.

Have you talked to your Dr. about your weight? Start a workout routine, with weights, it might give you some definition. I'm not talking out of the blue, my sister had the same problem she was 5'7 and couldn't keep weight on either. I use to tease her because her back shoulder blades would stick out farther than her boobs. So I use to tell her to face me when she's talking to me....

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Posted: 2/8/2013 12:13:05 PM
I am going to be talking to a doctor, I made an appointment.

A "tweaker" is someone who is strung out on Meth.

I was actually thinking about going to Ulta for some makeup tips, but I am so insecure and self conscious, its really hard to get up the motivation to expose myself like that.

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Posted: 2/8/2013 12:16:55 PM
If you opt not to schedule an appointment with your doctor maybe you could work with an aesthetician. My niece has rosacea, and my nephew had severe acne with some scars. Both worked with an aesthetician. My niece has less flare ups, and the redness in her cheeks is barely noticable. My nephew has clear skin. What a confidence boost for both of them.


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Posted: 2/8/2013 12:17:40 PM

I'm sorry you are going through this, I have the opposite problem. Overweight. It does take a toll on your confidence.

A treatment you might try for your acne is drink Lots of Green tea minted is really good. Also try a mix of Tea Tree Oil and Witch Hazel 11 to 1 ratio, 1 being the tea Tree Oil. Followed by a really good oil free face lotion. My dd battled acne and this has worked really well. She was even on a treatment from the dermatologist. This works better. Of course you need to cut back on oils. Only healthy oils.

Have you talked to your Dr. about your weight? Start a workout routine, with weights, it might give you some definition. I'm not talking out of the blue, my sister had the same problem she was 5'7 and couldn't keep weight on either. I use to tease her because her back shoulder blades would stick out farther than her boobs. So I use to tell her to face me when she's talking to me....


I will try the green tea! I am willing to try anything at this point. I am cutting out soda, coffee and chocolate. I have been trying to eat healthier lately so I will continue on that. I could start working out but getting the motivation for that is hard. I just need to get off my butt and do it.


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Posted: 2/8/2013 12:19:39 PM
I agree, you need to see both a doctor and an aesthetician. If I think of the list of things I do to keep up my confidence regarding my physical appearance it is long: facials, skin care, hair color, waxing, make up, exercise, weights, etc....lol
But I think the point is that a little can go a long way...



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Posted: 2/8/2013 12:24:16 PM
Wait is an aesthetician the same as a Esthetician ?

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Posted: 2/8/2013 12:31:27 PM
I think maybe you need a spa day! Just muster up the courage make an appointment and go!! Get a facial and some makeup tips, get your haircut, go get a new spring outfit. A makeover may be just what you need to get your self confidence up. Don't let someone bring you down, it's not worth it! Have a great day~Lisa

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Posted: 2/8/2013 12:52:11 PM
Google "DiamondsandHeels14" on YouTube. She has terrible acne and has become very well-known for her instructional videos on how to cover it with makeup. She does an amazing job. She's also one who would not leave the house because her acne is so bad. But after she gets done with her makeup, you'd never know she has it.

HTH!
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Posted: 2/8/2013 1:00:29 PM
Dear veryannoyed,
I am so glad you made a doctor appointment. Please tell the doctor about your depression. I am sure much of it comes from people being rude - and anyone who comments on your appearance is incredibly rude, but I think your doctor may be able to help you.

I work with someone who is very thin naturally and I can't believe the comments people feel are ok to make.

Please post a list of the great things about you. I'd love to see them. I bet there a lots! I wish you the best, pea friend.


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Posted: 2/8/2013 1:08:51 PM
I had another thought, if you are thin you should show it off not hide it (and you don't sound too thin) -- slim pants and a fitted sweater would look better than baggy jeans and a sweatshirt. If you want to add some bulk you should do it via exercise and healthy food.



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Posted: 2/8/2013 1:11:17 PM
I'm really sorry. I think people are so very rude to say this to you.

I don't know your money situation but there are cosmetic treatments for your skin issues. See if you can find a dermatologist to consult.

Other than that you just need to NOT allow people into your life who say such things to you. That's all I could suggest.



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Posted: 2/8/2013 1:17:04 PM
"Now, what’s the difference between esthetician and aesthetician?

The two words mean roughly the same thing and many suggest that the difference is only a result of geography: esthetician being a more Americanized spelling and aesthetician being a European spelling."

Googled the difference between the two and found this quote.


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Posted: 2/8/2013 1:18:50 PM
I have to run and possibly won't be back today, but thank you thank you thank you.
That video was amazing! Her skin looked beautiful. MY acne is not nearly as bad, but its more the scarring that I have and cystic acne on my cheeks.

Her video gave me some hope. I am also going to look into getting some facials done regularly and speaking with a dermatologist as well.

Lynn- Thank you! If I get a chance to come back today, I will make that list! There are great things about me. They just get lost to me a lot.

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Posted: 2/8/2013 1:32:21 PM
Genie,
Thanks for that video recommendation, it was fascinating!
I have melasma from my last pregnancy (and he is 6 1/2 now!) and the only way to remove it is a laser which I can't really afford and so I'm constantly looking for better ways to cover it.
Sorry to hijack.
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Posted: 2/8/2013 1:36:33 PM
what is your hairstyle like? sometimes a certain "look" is associated with someone thinking you are a tweaker-it could be a combination of your skin, the color makeup you have and how you apply it, and the way you wear your hair and/or the color. I agree that a esthetician or aestetician or however you spell it, lol is a good idea-they can help you figure out ways to help you update your look. I hate to suggest that someone change themselves just to make others happy but this seems to be really, really affecting your life and making you unhappy.

I think it's awful that people would say it to you and I agree-it "shouldn't" matter. I'd be really hurt if people said that to me as well so I can see where you are coming from


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Posted: 2/8/2013 1:49:09 PM
I'm going to suggest that, in addition to doing something about your appearance (solely because it would make you feel more confident), that you talk to your doctor about getting some help for depression.

These things can be very closely interrelated -- if you feel you look bad and it's making you lose self-confidence, that's making you depressed, and the depression can make you feel even worse about your appearance.

If you are worried about getting "addicted" to an anti-depressant or anything, approach it as a temporary measure -- something you can take until you start to have more confidence, and then you can taper off the drug under your doctor's guidance. I know a lot of people who have temporarily taken anti-depressants while going through a rough period in their lives.

I do think it's very good that you are doing something about feeling so bad. If you feel that you look horrible, and if it's affecting your confidence level, you ABSOLUTELY should take steps to feel better about yourself. Don't get caught up in a spiral of feeling bad, not doing anything about it, then feeling worse, feeling worse, feeling powerless, feeling worse. I've BEEN THERE, and IT SUCKS.

And I totally agree that the people in your life need a filter. Seriously? Who says these things? Why not just go up to people and tell them that they look ugly? Geez. Their mamas did NOT raise them right, as we say.




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Posted: 2/8/2013 1:52:08 PM
What a drag for you! People are so rude sometimes. Maybe a new, lighter, brighter hair style would help? And no offense, but how are your teeth? To be mistaken for a tweaker, I'm thinking there must be a few other things beside thinness and acne.


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Posted: 2/8/2013 1:56:18 PM
It sounds like your body language is screaming out tweaker. Look people in the eye, speak with emphasis, raise your shoulders.
And acne of any kind cannot be mistaken for meth scars. Meth scars are in a league all if their own.

Prayers, hugs, positive thoughts.
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Posted: 2/8/2013 1:57:06 PM
If your hair is bleached, consider coloring back to your natural color. Bleached hair can look washed out sometimes.

If your hair is fine, consider a blunt cut. No layers. A clean, blunt cut looks healthier on people with fine hair.

Cut out the caffeine like you said: chocolate, coffee, soda. Caffeine can be an appetite suppressant.

Are you consuming a decent amount of protein? Consider going to a GNC and picking up some protein powder and weight gaining supplements. Also, eat healthy, good calories.

And finally, don't miss your doctor appointment. Have them do a blood panel and check your hormone levels.

And I'm sorry. Having anyone comment on anyone's weight is so rude, big or small.


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Posted: 2/8/2013 1:57:14 PM
Veryannoyed, I know you're in a lot of pain, but you've come here for different perspectives and I'm a very blunt person...


It makes me so angry, because why did I never use the drug if I was just going to accused of using it anyway? Well, obviously I would never use it for very obvious reasons. I think it is the most disgusting drug and and I commend anyone who beat meth but apparently NOT using the drug did me no good as people still think I have.


I hope why you chose not to do meth had nothing to do with how you would be perceived, yet the impression I got from the way you worded this that this was indeed at least part of the reason.

You did not do meth. You had the strength to choose not to and you need to own that more than you are. You have earned that self-respect.



You may be thin, but that weight at 5'4" used to be considered pretty average. Maybe you aren't as terribly thin as you perceive yourself, and you aren't realizing the effects that smoking have had on your face.

Quitting smoking is an entirely different focus, and this focus on your weight or what people thought about you years ago is giving you a good excuse to continue smoking.


Fight this fight and actually quit smoking and your appearance and self confidence will improve dramatically.




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Posted: 2/8/2013 2:10:10 PM
I totally understand where you're coming from. I am 5'10-1/2" and weigh 128# and also have cystic acne scars on my face. There have been times when I've felt like hiding but I've found that even if I have to fake it, showing confidence always gives me a positive response from people. Always look people in the eye and smile.
I usually get comments about my weight too and there's not a thing I can do about it. Many times the ones that are critical are the ones who need to lose weight.

Have you thought of seeing a therapist to help yourself get a different mind set about it?


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Posted: 2/8/2013 2:22:36 PM
Aww hon, I'm sorry. {{hugs}}

First: Go get a make-over!! Let those gals at the make-up counter pamper you. Let them pick make-up colors that compliment your coloring.

Second: Go buy a few new outfits! Nothing makes me feel more confidant than wearing something new and spiffy.

Third: Throw back your shoulders and greet everyone with a big smile. Say hello, look them in the eye. Be the "happy person" in the room.




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Posted: 2/8/2013 2:57:39 PM
So, nothing has changed in the 30 days since you posted this last? No improvement with smoking, the diet, new makeup?

I'm not trying to be an asshole, but would you please post a picture of yourself?

Last month you said you have perfect teeth, are a girly girl and a very well put together person who never goes out without makeup.

How anyone can think you are an addict by just being thin is beyond me. Most people would think eating disorder if you are just overly thin. There has to be more to this story.

Again, not trying to be an ass, trying to understand and be helpful.

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Posted: 2/8/2013 3:18:25 PM
I also wanted to say that if you can go to a dept store and have your make up done, (and then buy some) you will love it. I don't know about Ulta but I have had my make up done at MAC, Clinique, and Estee Lauder in different years.

I also have some skin stuff - not acne but I don't like the skin on my face. SO I use Studio Tech foundation from MAC. It is pricey (to me) at $33 esp since mine only lasts 2 months (I wear it to work daily) but worth it to me. A lot of women don't like the heavy make up feel, but I love it. It covers up and evens out everything! I use that with MAC undereye concealer (I have terrible dark circles) and I love how my face looks.

That won't solve the problems of your face being very thin, and the yellowing of your teeth from the smoking, but it's just a suggestion. With those issues I think you will have to move past drug store make up into the higher end brands. IMO they are worth it.




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Posted: 2/8/2013 5:54:07 PM
You said on another thread that you never leave the house without your MAC makeup and you're very well put-together and have lovely teeth.
So that's not the issue.
Is your hair dry and straw-like? Visit a salon.

I can only think that you must hang around a crowd where meth use is not unusual and that's why they suspect--because it wouldn't be that unusual among some of the people you know. Because you're thin, from your ht/wt, but you're not THAT thin. And acne isn't the same as a meth-ravaged face. Are you twitchy and jumpy all the time? Are your mannerisms nervous?

Finally, are you imagining that this is what people are saying, or are you ACTUALLY hearing multiple people calling you a tweaker? It sounds like you've got some depression and/or anxiety issues going on. I'm glad you're talking to your doctor and working on the smoking and healthy diet. Regular exercise will build up muscle tone and increase your circulation, which will help your skin look more healthy.

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Posted: 2/8/2013 6:06:13 PM

I'm not trying to be an asshole, but would you please post a picture of yourself?

Last month you said you have perfect teeth, are a girly girl and a very well put together person who never goes out without makeup.

How anyone can think you are an addict by just being thin is beyond me. Most people would think eating disorder if you are just overly thin. There has to be more to this story


I'd be curious to see this as well. IME, the only people accused of being tweakers aren't well pulled together, wearing well applied expensive makeup and clothing with natural looking hair color and nicely styled, moder hairstyles. perhaps what you think is looking pulled together is excessive looking to others? overly dyed hair? old fashioned hair cut? too much makeup in unflattering colors or too much of it? there might be something easy to fix that is causing folks to make this assumption. It also could have a lot to do with how you carry yourself. I dunno-I really believe this has to be something that can be remedied. counseling probably is a good idea as well. it sounds like your self esteem could use some bolstering and perhaps you are depressed, as another pea said.

I'd understand if you arent comfortable posting a pic though- I'd hate to see you feel even worse about the whole situation.

one last thing about the smoking as I said before last month-if you are still smoking that could be a HUGE part of the issue. most smokers dont notice/have no idea how it ravages your face. smoking makes your complexion sallow, dry, with dark circles under your eyes and an overall unhealthy appearance-that could definitely lead someone to believe you might be a tweaker


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Posted: 2/8/2013 6:49:38 PM

I can only think that you must hang around a crowd where meth use is not unusual and that's why they suspect--because it wouldn't be that unusual among some of the people you know. Because you're thin, from your ht/wt, but you're not THAT thin. And acne isn't the same as a meth-ravaged face. Are you twitchy and jumpy all the time? Are your mannerisms nervous?

Finally, are you imagining that this is what people are saying, or are you ACTUALLY hearing multiple people calling you a tweaker? It sounds like you've got some depression and/or anxiety issues going on. I'm glad you're talking to your doctor and working on the smoking and healthy diet. Regular exercise will build up muscle tone and increase your circulation, which will help your skin look more healthy.


I totally agree. And I agree that a picture would help us give you better advice.



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Posted: 2/8/2013 7:00:47 PM
I won't post a picture because, for one, that is SCARY for me to do.


Yes I do have very nice teeth. There is some yellowing due to smoking and coffee but that's an easy fix that I will do this weekend.


I did try to quit since 30 days ago (smoking) but got depressed more and started again. I am really going to try.


When a salon does my hair its beautiful. It looks SOOO good, but I can never make my hair look like that. I have tried round brushing it myself but that never works out, I do straighten it though, I use the products I am supposed to etc.


I do have thick hair though, not super thick but its not stringy. Maybe its the way I dress or that I have tattoos, although those are covered?


I really don't know. Maybe I am not acting my age? Maybe its not my looks at all and I am so insecure that's where I go first. But its been said many times so there HAS to be some reason for it.


Lefturnonly- I briefly read through everyone's responses here as I need to get going again, but wanted to briefly check in. Right there are reasons I didn't ever do drugs and the main one was because I think its disgusting and respect myself too much for that

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I smell a troll...






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When my friend quit smoking, she was able to gain some weight all over. Please try to quit--you will be amazed at how it will stop sucking the vitality of your face!
And I highly recommend a dermatologist who can help you with the acne scars. There are so many new techniques for clearing and smoothing skin.
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Posted: 2/8/2013 7:12:52 PM

I smell a troll...


who frigging cares if it is?

I'm stuck at home during a storm trying to offer advice to a stranger on the interwebs. if she is a troll what, exactly does it cost me? what does it matter to you? are we somehow giving away state secrets as it relates to makeup? is she threatening national security by asking for advice about her skin? is my credit card at risk because I offered her some skincare tips and advice?

are you that insecure? does it make you feel special to sniff out potential deception from a person or situation that has nothing to do with you, costs you nothing, and offers no harm to you?

I HATE these stupid "outings" I proceed like a situation is real until I have a good reason not to. the ramblings of half-assed two peas inspector gadgets are meaningless.


-Kerry


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Posted: 2/8/2013 7:59:37 PM
Didn't you post almost this exact thread a couple months ago. You were given great advice on that thread.
Did you read the responses you got then?


I'm sorry you're sad and depressed but maybe you could see a dermatologist and psychologist

It ducks to have poor self esteem


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Posted: 2/8/2013 8:42:11 PM
"who frigging cares if it is?

I'm stuck at home during a storm trying to offer advice to a stranger on the interwebs. if she is a troll what, exactly does it cost me? what does it matter to you? are we somehow giving away state secrets as it relates to makeup? is she threatening national security by asking for advice about her skin? is my credit card at risk because I offered her some skincare tips and advice?

are you that insecure? does it make you feel special to sniff out potential deception from a person or situation that has nothing to do with you, costs you nothing, and offers no harm to you?

I HATE these stupid "outings" I proceed like a situation is real until I have a good reason not to. the ramblings of half-assed two peas inspector gadgets are meaningless.


-Kerry"
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Holy crapola!!! WTF? I think someone needs to like go for a walk and get out of the house.
I don't usually "out people", or whatver your ranting about. I'm just giving a heads up people...OP has some shady postings. But if you want to post advice to Bubba in grandma's basement in his underroo's you just go ahead..









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Posted: 2/8/2013 8:53:27 PM
I had adult acne all my life and my (former) dermatologist insisted diet had nothing to do with it.

Now I know if I eat the foods I'm allergic to, my skin reacts badly. Dairy makes me break out on my face (though with different red spots than inflamed pimples). The acne cleared up when the food allergies were identified (and when I stay off those foods).

You can figure out your own allergies by going on an elimination diet and slowly add back one food at a time. It's a tough diet but it's so worth it if that's what's causing your problems. My skin cleared up in just a few weeks on the ED.

Lisa Eldridge's video on acne and makeup is another resource that's not to be missed. What she does with what I thought was minimal makeup (for the model's fairly severe acne) is amazing. I have some scarring and I've been able to completely cover it using regular makeup and MAC concealer (plus Lisa's techniques using a tiny brush with the concealer).


I'm so sorry people have said things like that to you - you must be a lot younger than me - I had no idea what a tweaker was until I read this thread. It makes me angry and makes me think you need a different circle of friends.


Mary




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Posted: 2/8/2013 9:12:02 PM

]I could start working out but getting the motivation for that is hard. I just need to get off my butt and do it.


I'm right there with ya sister!!! LOL

I totally understand about being self conscious about your face. I was in a motorcycle accident some years back had 40something stitches in my face, and still bare many scars. I know it has hindered me in many ways.

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Posted: 2/9/2013 4:36:58 AM
I have cystic acne as well.

This might sound like the simplest of solutions, but how much water do you drink? I try to be good about only drinking water - no sodas etc at all. When I manage to stick to it I can see a world of difference in my complexion and in my mental outlook. I feel much more positive and focused, and my skin feels wonderful. (I've slipped quite a bit in the last month and have had soda fairly often. I can see and feel the difference. Time to get back on track.)

Combined with plenty of exercise and healthy eating, its a wonderful feel good combination for me.

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Posted: 2/9/2013 8:39:34 AM
Please don't give up!!

I suffered my teen years with acne and have scars all over my cheeks to prove it. It's upsetting but I do what I can. I've had 3 treatments of chemical peels and it helped a little. I haven't done dermabrasion or anything drastic like that because I'm really OK with it after all these years. I know in certain angles and light it looks bad but again, I've grown to accept it and really don't care. I have a loving husband who loves me no matter what I look like and I think that's what makes it easier. I do love makeup and experiment with it all the time. I think even a little makeup is a huge improvement. Right now I'm using Garnier BB cream and love it, it's thick and covers a lot. Then I dust that with mineral powder by Physicians Formula. Experiment with eye makeup, I do and have fun with it. They give makeup lessons at Ulta. They also do free eyebrow makeover on your b-day. That's just the cosmetic portion of your issue.

on to your self-esteem:

Did you ever hear the expression, "what other people think of me is none of my business?' think about what it means and really believe it. It's true. I used to let people get to me but now I have this attitude, "if they don't like me, it's their problem, I know I'm a good person" and really detach yourself from their negative attitude and focus on what makes you HAPPY. Stay positive and strong and focus on you!!


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Posted: 2/9/2013 8:57:06 AM
Maybe you should take a look at the company you keep? Do you have friends or acquaintances who do drugs? Being thin and having acne should not result in people thinking someone is a drug user.



Rhonda



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Posted: 2/9/2013 9:10:19 AM

Holy crapola!!! WTF? I think someone needs to like go for a walk and get out of the house.
I don't usually "out people", or whatver your ranting about. I'm just giving a heads up people...OP has some shady postings. But if you want to post advice to Bubba in grandma's basement in his underroo's you just go ahead..





if you think your "observation" hasn't been considered by people here, then you really aren't very bright. EVERYONE who has been at two peas for more than 5 minutes is 100% aware that some posters are trolls. deeply insecure people like yourself like attention and get it by showing everyone how "smart" they are by "calling out" potential trolls. what you fail to understand is that you aren't offering anything at all relevent to the conversation---just potentially upsetting someone who may in fact be real, or causing more attention to be put on Bubba in his basement-which is of course, exactly what bubba wants. it's like someone standing in a rain storm, proudly reporting the weather. we get it Captain Obvious-the person may or may not be a troll.

your news flash isnt a newsflash at all and if the OP IS bubba....WHO CARES?????


-Kerry


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Posted: 2/9/2013 6:59:36 PM
I'm so sorry---I know you said leaving your house is very difficult, but is there any way you could get to a a counselor and/or a support group to help with all of your depression and anxiety? Isolation/ not wanting to leave your house is going to make it much worse---Prayers and ((( hugs ))))

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Posted: 2/9/2013 7:02:16 PM
Something else to consider: If you're having adult-onset cystic acne, and experiencing mood changes, possibly part of the problem is hormonal or thyroid related. Just something to discuss with your doctor, not sure if that's been covered or not.

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Posted: 2/9/2013 7:59:51 PM
If your acne is really a source of embarrassment, get to a dermatologist ASAP. Scarring and acne can be minimalized with treatment.

I'm married to a very skinny man. When he's stressed he gets down to about 145-150 lb at 6' tall. In some pictures he looks ill or on drugs because he is so skinny, so I know what you mean. We have to play with angles to make him look fuller in pictures.

You're a woman, make up can help. Change your hairstyle so as to not draw your face down. There are ways to fix this, I hope this helps!


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