Scrapping all about me ... being INTENTIONAL
Like many scrapbookers I have always been more focused on my family and getting them into the picture or capturing our every day moments. At one point I wasn't to be seen in any photographs which suited me as I wasn't happy with the way I looked. No pictures of me also meant no confrontation with my inner demons.
One day my dad started scanning older photos and I got digital copies. I went through all of them and LOVED seeing myself in the pictures but particulary enjoyed the photos of my parents. I felt I got to know them even more and felt immense joy being able to see them when they were younger. I knew I had to get in the picture for my children. I had to accept that what I see isn't what they see. Forcing myself to get in front of the camera also made me analyse why I had such a problem with my image. It has made me discover that I don't have to be ashamed of my looks because what I think is imperfect isn't noticeable by others.
After having realised that I had to hand the camera over, I also had to find ways to make the whole experience enjoyable. This is where BEING INTENTIONAL plays an important part. I have found that it is easier for me to be photographed when I link the whole process to moments or situations I find enjoyable. Some people might call it staged but I prefer to call it purposeful, willful or deliberate planning. I have the intention to be photographed and have to make it fun.
How do I go about it?
- I take selfies of myself and the children. They always make me laugh and we have a blast playing around and being silly. Some of these pictures are my favourites:
- I focus on something I LOVE. I have a soft spot for fashion and love making new outfits with clothes I already have. I also love wearing/buying dresses and each time I have a new outfit or dress I take a photo. Combining something you enjoy with the photography process makes it a lot easier.
- My camera is my best friend and I have a hard time handing it over. Now, I intentionally give the camera to my husband or one of the children. I quickly explain what they have to do and make sure the settings are correct. They make great pictures and at the same time I am teaching my children something about photography which they LOVE.
This picture was taken by my husband on our vacation in the South of France.
My son Damien who is 10 took these a couple of weeks ago. He loved taking pictures of me. He felt like a paparazzi.
Now that I have pictures of myself that are connected to fun and enjoyable moments, I have noticed that it is a lot easier to make layouts about myself. I am also more aware of how I feel and what disturbed me in the first place. It wasn't the photo but my incapacity to see myself as I am. I can say that I enjoy seeing photos of myself, even the less "pretty" ones. They all are a part of my story. A story that should be told and documented. Please tell your story and get in the picture.